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Who I Want
05:06
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I wish I could become okay all on my own, not have to stay
Right next to you, thinking about everything that you made me doubt
I wish I could retaliate, make you realize how much I hate
How much you made me into a pill that you could take whenever you willed
Now I can become who I want
Who I want
I'm on my own, no one to care, no one to mind what I want to wear
On top of my face and inside my heart, no one to love, you can't tear me apart
I'm on my own, we'll see how it goes. I'll overcome everything you can throw
You try to make me care again but when you knock, I will not open
Now I can become who I want
Who I want
I still see you every week day but you cannot make me want to stay
You might think that I want to care but when you didn't care you left me aware
That everything that you do is all for yourself, nobody but you
I wish I could show you how to love, make that one choice, but I've had enough
Now I can become who I want
Who I want
I wish I could become okay all on my own, not have to stay
Right next to you, thinking about everything that you made me doubt
I wish I could retaliate, make you realize how much I hate
How much you made me into a pill that you could take whenever you willed
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Violent Skies
03:30
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Oh the violent skies of my mind
They keep me trapped right behind
Everything in my life
There is nothing left to see here
The violent skies rain down
The violent skies spin around
The violent skies hit the ground
The violent skies have come to town
The storm afar calls the name
On my shoulders fall the blame
The people are afraid
Who here has betrayed me?
The violent skies rain down
The violent skies spin around
The violent skies hit the ground
The violent skies have come to town
Trumpets blare and cymbals crash
Cumulonimbus torn by blasts
People on the ground remain still
Not sure what to do or how to feel
The violent skies rain down
The violent skies spin around
The violent skies hit the ground
The violent skies have come to town
Violent skies...
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Dancing with Yesterday
03:24
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I'm dancing with yesterday
I wish I would feel okay
I'm dancing with yesterday
I wish this partner would go away
I don't want to see him no more
I don't like this dance floor
I don't see him when I look in the mirror
But something tells me he's always here
I know I've gotten tall
But his presence makes me feel so small
I know I've gotten tall
But his presence makes me want to fall
Chorus
And when I rest my eyes on her
Spinning across the barren earth
I want to reach out with my heart
But oh no he won't let me start
I know what I could say
But he says the challenge is too great
I know what I could say
But I'm not getting it out today
Chorus
I say I hate this dance floor
He says I hate myself
I say "I'm leaving you"
He says there's no one else
I say "what about-"
He cuts me off, then
He Turns around with an evil grin
Why can't I get away
He should be dead and buried, Mr. Yesterday
Why can't I get away
He should be dead and buried Mr. Yesterday
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Ride
02:22
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I seem to be always slipping through the cracks
of closed doorways through which I can never go back
Either give me justice or give me piece of mind
like tranquil bliss in the great outside
In the great outside where my dreams go to die
The meaning behind is hidden from my mind
And I shuffle through the brush around me
But to get to you I'd have to climb the tree
But it's so tall, way up in the sky
I don't want to fall so give me a ride
But it's so tall, way up in the sky
I don't want to fall so give me a ride
Give me a ride, give me a ride
Only if I won't be a thorn in your side
I feel like I can only do one thing
That's follow somebody down this stream
Down this stream made up of my dreams
That's the only place where I'll find what it means
Look at what you put me through
I'll keep going to get to you
But it's so tall, way up in the sky
I don't want to fall so give me a ride
But it's so tall, way up in the sky
I don't want to fall so give me a ride
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Waiting for You
05:57
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I'm waiting for a sign of you
I've got my ear to the ground listening for the step of your shoes
You've been gone and you don't know how much I love you
Gone gone away I'm waiting here missing you
I'm watching the skies waiting for rain so it won't be the same
So dry and barren without you Spartan lands with nothing but pain
You've been gone and you don't know how much I love you
Gone gone away I'm waiting here missing you
I've got my feet in the sand within the land taking root
But growth doesn't remove the lack of you or the holes in my suit
You've been gone and you don't know how much I love you
Gone gone away I'm waiting here missing you
My head floats in the clouds searching above for your love
The stars spell out your name but I wish they would unite us
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I'm faded by my intuition
I'm jaded by her television
I'm pissed off at the the TV show
I got ripped off by the status quo
I'll head up to the mountaintop
I'm revved up because I got a shot
I'll take what belongs to me
I'll be the king on top the tree
Step back!
Step back!
Step back!
Step back!
I'm beaten up, it ain't easy pickings
But I won't give up, not til Christmas
It's June now, got six months to go
I'll pull it off, rain or snow
My engine is running hot
I think my lid's about to pop
I'm taking what belongs to me
Now I'm the king on top the tree
Step back!
Step back!
Step back!
Step back!
Hell, I'm in my prime condition
You got shit in hand, just kept wishin'
All you got are broken hopes
Man, I'm drinking wine in golden robes
Why the hell would I ever stop
There's always other mountaintops
This tree don't got anything for free
You ain't gonna take the crown from me
Step back!
Step back!
Step back!
Step back!
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Space God
05:26
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The topic of this discussion is something of unimaginable size
A world beyond ours which we cannot comprehend yet
Maybe, just maybe, we will never understand
To save ourselves from the horrors that are at hand
What I am talking about is the destruction of a mind not one but many
As you see, we are all connected by some mystical force
I cannot explain or begin to comprehend but I urge you
Do not delve deeper for surely we will all perish as one
Take life for instance, some miracle
Or just a chemical reaction played out in perfect subharmony
You see, just as easy as it comes into existence it can be extinguished
Like a flame sprouting from nothing and gone with a gust of wind
Now I sit at my desk and I don't understand
I have the knowledge, I have the power
But yet my own humanity is telling me to stop
I want to stop but the power is pushing me forward so I sit, slowly going insane.
The insanity is growing, as I'm writing this journal my poor frail mind begins to crumble beneath me
I feel it, the power deep inside, the power to destroy, the power is in my hands
But I can't, there is a barrier there, something that is holding me back, why is it holding me back?
I know deep down inside this is what I must do but still I cannot go forward with my plan
What cruel god would wish this upon me? What cruel being of ultimate power would bestow this to my mind and then let me stop?
What god? Some being from outer space? What do I call such a thing? What do I call that power?
Hello again, this is my final entry
I am sorry to say but I am done with this plan
I am finally able to stop myself but at the cost of my own life
I have come to terms with my own existence that I am nothing but a pawn for some space god out there in this great beyond
Just know that life is safe so long as I perish
But I am no hero, I am just a man, corrupted by the cruel intentions of a space god
A final quote from Carl Sagan:
The cosmos is all that is or was or ever will be.
Our feeblest contemplations of the cosmos stir us
There is a tingling in the spine, a catch in the voice,
A faint sensation, as if a distant memory, of falling from a height.
We know we are approaching the greatest of mysteries.
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Genie
03:42
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Talking to my genie, "When will you set me free?
No one knows how much I plead. Granted wishes not for me."
One more wish still on my mind, how much kindness can I find?
No one knows if I decide to keep my genie trapped inside.
Will he forgive if I join all the ones who left him there?
Should I keep this last wish for myself, piling up my greed?
How many times has he been thrown away used for his helpful pain?
I don't know, I don't want to know, I don't wish to know.
When I made my first wish, to have someone to kiss,
My genie made it so, never will I be alone.
Beauty encoded in skin, what I would not give again
To have her here my whole life, always there when I'm in strife.
Will he forgive if I join all the ones who left him there?
Should I keep this last wish for myself, piling up my greed?
How many times has he been thrown away used for his helpful pain?
I don't know, I don't want to know, I don't wish to know.
My genie made it all right, no more would I have to fight.
Persuasion infused in speech, they follow all that I beseech.
If only I could persuade myself from throwing away
My genie inside a box. Maybe I'll just cut the locks.
Will he forgive if I join all the ones who left him there?
Should I keep this last wish for myself, piling up my greed?
How many times has he been thrown away used for his helpful pain?
I don't know, I don't want to know, I don't wish to know.
Refreshed by the breathing fire, then why am I so damn tired?
Gone are all that I held dear, wasting infinite years.
Life is death or can't you see, trapped in immortality.
Genie why did I leave you to rot eternally?
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10. |
Your Crime
02:19
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Hey what did you find?
Who is on your mind?
They say love is blind
So I guess I can't see your crime
Why I am still here
I guess I'm frozen in fear
Of what you'd say to me
If my mind spoke free
I can see in your eyes
A world where time just flies
That's where I'd like to be
If there ever could be you and me
Na Na Na...
Hey what did you find?
Who is on your mind?
They say love is blind
So I guess I can't see your crime
I Can sing as Loud as I can
I can be your biggest fan
But as long you're a photo on the shelf
I'm just singing to myself
She'll never be close
What matters to me most
It's like I don't exist
When my only possession is wish
Na Na Na
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